Sam rolls back and forth in his bed. Nightmare. The same nightmare every fucking nite. He can’t breath. Can’t feel anything. It’s just pain. He coughs. Finally wakes up. Sweaty. Still can’t breath. He opens his eyes. He tries to calm down and control his breath. He needs to calm down.

The first thing Sammy sees when he wakes up are beautiful eyelashes softly resting on his brothers cheeks. He was always fascinated by how beautiful his brothers eyelashes were. Carefully and gently Sam moves closer to his brothers face. Now he can see each single lash. Beautiful, black and curled. Perfectly fitting to his brothers amazing eyes. He wishes his brother would open his eyes so that he can see the most beautiful green eyes in the world. Shining like the sun. His brother has the most beautiful eyes he’s ever seen. Sam always gets lost in them. But he doesn’t want to wake him. Not yet. Sam wants his brother to rest. Sams eyes wanders from his brothers closed eyes to his nose. He can see some little scars on his nose. He still remembers where his brother got this scars. He bites his lip. The little scars are surrounded by thousands of little freckles. Sam gently touches his brothers nose and strokes his cheeks. Lays his hand on his brothers face. He tried to count all his freckles last nite when he couldn’t sleep. Too many beautiful freckles. Too many. He loved doing this when he was younger. Always helped him to fall asleep. He rests his hand on his brothers cheek. Feeling his stubbles with his fingers. His brother did not shave for the last days. Sam always loves it when his brothers got stubbles. He just loves the scruff. Sams still staring at his beautiful freckles. With his other hand Sam touches his brothers eye brow. He can see another scar. It makes Sam shiver. Not million scars in the world would make his brother look less beautiful. He is perfect to him. In every way. His brothers eyes start to move under his closed eyelids. His lips start to move and he takes a deep breath. Sam can feel his brothers breath on his skin. Sam takes his hand away from his brothers face and put them on his lips. He whispers gently his name. His brother calms down and his face relaxes. Sams still got his fingers on his brothers lips. There’s still a little blood spot on his lips. From yesterdays hunting. Sam slowly slides his tongue along his brothers lips. He can taste his brothers blood in his mouth. He can’t stand it anymore. Sam moves even closer to his brother and touches gently his lips with his own lips. The taste of his brothers lips makes his mind blow away. He can’t think. He can’t breath. Softly he licks his brothers lips again and wanders to his nose and cheek. He grabs his brothers shoulder and moves closer to him. There’s not a millimetre space between them now. He can feel his brothers heartbeat on his chest. Strong and beautiful. He touches his brothers naked chest. He can feel and hear his brothers heart pumping blood through his veins. It is beautiful. He can feel his brothers breathing. His chest goes up and down. Sams hand is still resting on his brothers chest. He can see more scars. He lays his arm around his brother shoulders and pushes his brothers head on his chest. His brother starts to move. Quickly Sam lifts his brothers head and kisses him on the forehead and nose. Next he kisses him on his lips. He can feel his brothers eyelashes on his cheek. Now they’re lying next to each other. Face to face, not with a millimetre between them. Sams still holding his brothers shoulder. His brother tries to breath through Sams lips. His brother opens his eyes. He blinks. Sams looking at him. Can’t take his eyes away from him. His brother looks like a little child when he wakes up. Fragile and vulnerable. His brother moves his arm and touches Sams arm. Sam can feel the firm grip of his brothers hand. Not fragile. Not vulnerable. His brother opens his eyes. Blinks several times. He looks deep in Sammys eyes still holding his arm. His brothers eyes are shining. Shining like the sun. Shining like diamantes. It hurts Sams eyes. He can’t look away. His brother swallows. He coughs. His brother touches his face. He can feel his brothers strong hands on his face. He strikes him a streak from his face. His brother still looks at him with a kind face. His brother smiles at him. Sam can see his shiny white teeths. Even his teeths are perfect. His lips start to move. Sam still can’t look away from his brothers eyes. He feels like he’s 10 again. Sam feels like a kid. Looking up to his brother. Who always saved and protected him. Who will always save and protect him. Forever. His brother opens his mouth. Sam hears his brothers voice. His breathing gets harder. One word. Just one word. And this one word makes his eyes water. A tear runs down his cheek. His brother says the word again. Sams brains going to explode he can hardly breath. His brothers voice is all in his head. His brother touches his cheek and wipes the tear away. And says the word again. His brother is still smiling at him. Moving his lips closer to Sam. He kisses him on his forehead and then on his lips. Sams feeling like he´s going to burn up. His brother pushes Sams head on his chest. Slowly moving his lips to Sams ear. His brother keeps him in his arm. He can feel his brothers breath on his ear. He can hear his voice again “SAMMY”. Sams breathing calms down and he feels. He just feels his brothers love. He feels like nothing can harm him anymore. Coz his brother is here. His big brother. He is here. Sam pushes his brother even closer to him. He can smell his skin. He can feel his brother. He wants him never to take his arms away and keep him in his arm forever. His big brother. His love. The only person who can make his world perfect. Make his life complete. Make everything complete. With just one word.

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